Your self doubt is the only reason why you wouldn't get what you want. Stop doubting and start believing that you can have what you want in your life.
Here is my question: Why? Why would you believe that what you desire cannot happen? I’m sure there are a bunch of excuses and reasons that can be thought up to support why your argument is true, but how is that helping the situation?
Guess what? It’s not.
Changing the habit of knocking yourself down and doubting that you can have what you want is a huge factor in changing the reality of your life. Realizing that you are just as deserving as anyone else is key. Don’t hold on to what "you think" you have done to deserve something less. That’s not a valid or truthful thought. It’s just part of the negative story that is holding you back.
It's part of the gift of life to be able to change at any point and have your desires become a reality.
Expect amazing things to happen for you. They can and will happen for you once you believe and expect them too. It’s a sure thing if you believe it is.